Sleeplessness. Honestly. One Moment I am passing out the next my brains are on fire and I cant sleep. Please dear GOD take pity and let me close my eyes ( one eye closed ). Nope not a wink. FINE ! I WILL EXHAUST MYSELF BY WRITING HERE! Life! Hello Life! Hello 2 decades! What do you have to show for yourself? 2 pieces of furniture that i owe. CHECK. a dozen pairs of shoes. CHECK. Girlfriends that make me laugh so hard I almost pee my pants. CHECK. The Same Girlfriends that are there for me when I really need it. CHECK. My family that loves every silly dumb and obnoxious bit of me. CHECK. A Boyfriend that makes me melt. CHECK. The same Boyfriend that I feel makes me think about my future and scares me. CHECK. One who makes everything just disappear with his smile and easy going nature and awesome Personality. CHECK. One who cares about me, even though I Don't understand it. CHECK. My young restless heart. CHECK. A job that lets me have fun. CHECK. My sister that smells like My sister ( DON'T ASK... SHE SMELLS LIKE A BABY to me since she was little) CHECK.
Little Everyday details of everyday life and the people it includes. CHECK.Definitely overwhelming with so many check marks.
I LOVE it all. BUT SOMETIMES I NEED A TIME OUT. A quite room. I dream of a bathroom. MY ZEN ROOM. I would go to my ZEN room ( Maybe take my honey with me) lock it up and spend some quality time there. I would just let my heart beats vibrate against my chest and bounce of the walls. Let me breath fill my lungs and allow my body to be explored by my mind. MY ZEN ROOM. COMING SOON.
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