Biggest Loser

Okay so I am a sucker for success stories. Its why I dated my Ex ( baby don't kill me). Its why I got my job. Its the reason I am going back to school. But honestly, I enjoy other peoples success stories way more then I do my own sometimes.

I watched the Biggest Loser live finally tonight and WOW are these people amazing. Kind of makes me feel a bit a loser myself when I watch it and not in the I lost 100 Pounds kind of loser, but `Your such a whinny Baby Loser`.  Watching these people conquer their biggest challenge in weight loss, themselves, I felt like a moron. On a daily basis I probably get in my own way at least 3 times a day. Whether its going for a run on a daily basis, turning off the TV and doing something productive, Cleaning my room, reaching out to my friends or just making smart career moves, I just sometimes end up stalling or telling my self one more day of the easy life wouldn't really make that big of an Impact. But it does. It really Does. It Impacts my Moral. My Body. My Attitude. And my Life. When I started to watch the Biggest Loser when it first came out, I was Such a cynic. I kept saying what a dumb publicity stunt, making peoples failures in life appear on television. But now ( I`m Older ) I realised that this show is exactly the type of show that we need our children watching.( Or in my case the imaginary kid that's in my heart ( ME)).  It has all the right values in it, and by the end of the show why not make yourself a little richer if you have just aired out all your insecurities to millions of people. These people are truly vulnerable. Like really!!! I have a problem with being that mushy, helpless human being. I try to be strong all the time. I am a warrior down to the core. Fuck you World I'm taking you down. But that's not the attitude that will get me very far in life. Exposing my more soft side and letting other people in, is true strength. Strength Really Lies in being true to yourself, not in Building walls, Not in going on crusades, but in getting out of your own way and in letting yourself be you. Its about making a decision for all the right reasons and sticking to it. Its about making changes. Its about telling yourself No, Once in a while.

So tomorrow morning, I am going to get up at 5:30am and go for a run. Thanks TV land for inspiration where I thought inspiration lived no more.