Biggest Loser

Okay so I am a sucker for success stories. Its why I dated my Ex ( baby don't kill me). Its why I got my job. Its the reason I am going back to school. But honestly, I enjoy other peoples success stories way more then I do my own sometimes.

I watched the Biggest Loser live finally tonight and WOW are these people amazing. Kind of makes me feel a bit a loser myself when I watch it and not in the I lost 100 Pounds kind of loser, but `Your such a whinny Baby Loser`.  Watching these people conquer their biggest challenge in weight loss, themselves, I felt like a moron. On a daily basis I probably get in my own way at least 3 times a day. Whether its going for a run on a daily basis, turning off the TV and doing something productive, Cleaning my room, reaching out to my friends or just making smart career moves, I just sometimes end up stalling or telling my self one more day of the easy life wouldn't really make that big of an Impact. But it does. It really Does. It Impacts my Moral. My Body. My Attitude. And my Life. When I started to watch the Biggest Loser when it first came out, I was Such a cynic. I kept saying what a dumb publicity stunt, making peoples failures in life appear on television. But now ( I`m Older ) I realised that this show is exactly the type of show that we need our children watching.( Or in my case the imaginary kid that's in my heart ( ME)).  It has all the right values in it, and by the end of the show why not make yourself a little richer if you have just aired out all your insecurities to millions of people. These people are truly vulnerable. Like really!!! I have a problem with being that mushy, helpless human being. I try to be strong all the time. I am a warrior down to the core. Fuck you World I'm taking you down. But that's not the attitude that will get me very far in life. Exposing my more soft side and letting other people in, is true strength. Strength Really Lies in being true to yourself, not in Building walls, Not in going on crusades, but in getting out of your own way and in letting yourself be you. Its about making a decision for all the right reasons and sticking to it. Its about making changes. Its about telling yourself No, Once in a while.

So tomorrow morning, I am going to get up at 5:30am and go for a run. Thanks TV land for inspiration where I thought inspiration lived no more.

Simple Foods ... And a Guilty Conscience

So, I realise I have a problem.

I don't eat breakfast or eat proper lunches! Yikes. Not for lack of trying. I am an on the go modern woman, who balances, family, friends, work and my values so I don't exactly have the time or the energy to cook for myself sometimes. I get up in the morning as late as possible in order to catch up on some extra snooze and I do not have any time to create a 2 decent meals for myself. One for Breakfast and One for Lunch. I know I should, but I can get away with grabbing whatever I can find around the office. Not always the smart way to go, but I at least it gets me through. But recently I have started to notice severe migraines if I do not eat on time, my midsections a bit blobbery and I totally feel unsatisfied with my food selections ( I need more flavour... More Oumff!)

So starting next week... I Promise to get up earlier and pack my own lunches and stuff breakfast in my mouth. Something Vegetarian.

A Toast...

Dear weekend,

I raise a glass to you for the things that I have accomplished and the things I have not.

Thank you for time with my sister. To the random laughes. Stuffing our face full of food all day. To knowing glances across the coffee table. To hugs early in the morning. To soulful conversations.

Thank you to boyfriend wonderfulness. To my thoughtful human with flowers at my door just because. To grocery shopping together. To Kraft Dinner dinner. To cuddling. To tickelisness. To warm fuzzy feelings. To date interuppting family members and wonderful boyfriend understanding.

Thank you for mommy hugs and daddy jokes.

Thank you for sunny Sunday. Fearless lawnmower manuvers.Grass stained knees. Dirt streeked face. To Bugs that come out from nowhere. Curious Robins. To blisters and muscle aches

Thank you for a Wonderful Weekend

- Happy Weekend Everyone... Hope your work week is a good one.

I wonder...

Recently, I have become smarter. Way smarter. Thank you dear boyfriend. I am slowly learning to listen to people and learn from other people’s success and failures, as per advice. Before, I used to attempt everything on my own. Never seeking advice or asking for help. Never considering that there were those that have come before me and have walked the path that I have yet to walk.

I started to wonder if I could make my troubles easier, if I could share in the moment with others. I started to search. I started to wonder. And then I had a Eureka… that’s right just like Archimedes, I jumped out of my bath… but instead of having an epiphany about volume and water displacement, I had one about happiness. I understood that I needed to research happiness and what it meant in order to find my own perfect happiness. As soon as I discovered this, strange and wondrous things started to happen. My mission started to follow me around. I discovered the book Project Happiness by Gretchen Rubin and her Website (http://www.happiness-project.com// ). I have placed it on my ‘To read list’ this year. I follow her website like there is no tomorrow. I have also discovered a wonderful blog that I just love to read on a daily basis called 1000 Awesome Things ( http://1000awesomethings.com/ ) by Neil Pasricha. For everyday he picks a tiny awesome moment like dropping your cell phone on the sidewalk and then realizing it’s totally fine or napping with someone, or finding money in your pocket and just letting us feel that great awesome feeling with that comes with it. And guess what? He’s got a book that came out this month. I cannot wait to read it. And then get my friends hooked on it. I always like those tiny details in life but this actually forces me to acknowledge that I am not the only one going through this wonderful world. It makes me feel grateful that I am alive. It makes me see my world more positively. And the more positive that I am, the happier I make other people around me. This in turn provides more positive and happy feelings until I just feel like it’s one happy loop. My mood improves. I pick less fights and I am a lot more productive. I feel like I accomplish more. My life just becomes fuller to the extent that I feel the need to share my new found super powers with everyone and anyone that I come in contact with. I have learned to bring my Sunshine Everywhere.